thank you,Papa

Fathers have such sad existence.They are unable to hold a candle to a mother's love

...how should a father live & what should he leave behind for his children.

ちょっとだけ寂しいけど、その時まで。。。ありがとう、パパ。さようなら。(It's going to be a little lonely but..until then,thank you Papa.goodbye)

a friend did not believe me when I told her I cried over a drama series. I am capable of crying over fiction stories, though never on a drama.I hardly watch melodrama, that is.This is slightly easy to cry over, it involved hospital & a father's love.Two things that made me miss my papa.

 who would've thought goofy Onizuka sensei could act in a serious drama & cried.The fact that I'd dedicate a post on this drama proved it was a good, tearful watch.Even the hubby could not bear to see it after a long day work.

雨、雨

did u know..I love rain & my latest obsession now is tin toy?

WIP

right.this post is just to remind silly me that I have not completed any of these within the time span: 2 weeks. More so in the sketchbook.Have you been in a situation where you have ideas pouring in but once you start, you tend to forget how you imagined it to be & so you move to a new one which probably excites you more.Silly isn't it? my resolution for this year is to update my portfolio with more variety & stuff, style which shows my strength in design.

ps: ahuh.looks like I have more works to be done.crap.It's all over the place..blehh :|

the censored post

the 200 year old ukiyo-e






you know, I know 'what'




Japan map & the beast

I can't resist putting the 'censored' image.I find it's a bit amusing.Ever since the latest single came out a few days ago, I can't stop watching the video.It became an early morning routine, that and the song on loop all day long (it helps masking out the annoying voice of your team mate too - bonus)

I think I haven't felt like this in a while, not since the epic 9 minutes long video of Vinushka 2 years ago.PV aside, the song is addictive.As I tweeted - ear-orgasm (excuse for the lack choice of words here).This is by far, my favourite single by Dir en grey this year.Lotus & Hageshisa to, Kono Mune no Naka de Karamitsuita Shakunetsu no Yami are not really addictive compare to Different Sense(for me).As stupid as this sound to me, I ordered the last 2 singles before it came out but I didn't this time.Maybe I should.Or just grab the $200 worth album in August.end story.

I didn't know why everyone was making a big fuss over the video.Comments like "oh noes tentacle pron in Dir en grey's latest" didn't sound fishy to me.So I was naive.Googled.

tada.(curious much? just Google 'The dream of the Fisherman's wife')

so now I know.The video is not a pretty sight.Not gory like Obscure was though.As always, there must be a reason behind this.Dir en grey is the only band I know that always express their thoughts,their roots in almost every lyrics, video.They might be condemning their own country, the people but it shows the reality can be harsh.They don't agree how things are done in their birthplace.My wild guess is..well, probably revolve around hentai, sexual demeanor of the people.I haven't gotten around to see the translation of the lyric yet.

edit: found the interview!
The interpretation of the music video's story is very subjective. We don't want to push this onto anybody. It is a story that makes us as a band feel something as well. We have worked with the director Hiroyuki Kondo for many years. We started by asking him to listen to the track and then express what he felt, this is where the overall concept for the video came from. Borrowing our director's words "in order to create or express something in Japan now, it is unavoidable for an element of grotesque to not be part of that expression".

"Whether a form of expression is 'harmful' or not is being determined by the values of those in the power, however in Japan now the expression of the view 'the world is beautiful, the future does not change' is actually more harmful, and I don't think there is anything as uninteresting to look at as an expression of the values of those in power."

This is precisely a way of thinking that the band relates to, and we feel this was the right concept.

The experiment.Men created the monster themselves, in the end it destroyed them.That must be one of the subjective, hidden message, I presume.So awesome,awe-inspiring. Makes me want to fly to Japan & beg Mr Hiroyuki Kondo to take me as an apprentice.