I have a formal photo blog so I don't post my pictures here anymore.I'm not even a photographer. Decided to post random thoughts & ramblings on favorite music videos/motion/random artwork here instead than let it wither and dies painfully which eventually leads to closing down. If you're here just to stalk my daily life, sorry losers. I don't keep a diary.cough cough* like hell there's any stalkers.Anyways,whenever I see someone/some fan girls/boys post something like this on the networld : (below are actual/similar comments on youtube etc)

ahhhhhhh I want my old Diru back!they look so much better with make up and costumes!!!!!!!!!!

or

I want Totchi-chan to wear make up again!!!

or

bring back visual kei Diru!!!!!!!!they sound like American nowadays, their old works are much better!!

I don't know what the hell with !!! till infinity, maybe it's an expression of excitement or something, but I'll just take a look at these Dir en grey's old pictures

If you're wondering who's the pretty girl in blue, that's Toshiya/Totchi.The other pretty one would be Shinya.

Are you freaking kidding me ? compare those to these :

I rest my case. I'm pretty much an old fan, discovered them during high school year (I'd blame on Kaoru's good looks with purple hair), dropped the loyalty fan card and came back again when I heard they sound more aggresive, and took off the ridiculous outfit (I swear there's more funny costumes than posted above).I guess I'm not fond of visual kei bands.And they don't sound..Japanese.surprise surprise!They don't sound Jrock at all. (oh hey I like Jrock too, Luna Sea ~♥♥♥) guess age made them dropped the flashy costumes.

red moon

Kaoru looks good in suit while rocking

love love love the colours!

no prize for guessing what the hell is that thing she's holding

This is what you call a good looking vampire

the awesome morphing scene

Die was hungry

no he's not Marilyn Manson you idiots

In Japanese folklore it says red moon represents bad luck.
Himegoto kakusu mijuku ji no
tsurushita kuzuki koyoi de ikutsu

How many secret hangings of the premature
baby tonight under the red moon - Obscure

Diru's Obscure -Wicked song. The pv is a brilliant piece of work from Hiroyuki Kondoh. The colour correction. The make up. The props. Lets not forget the icky slimy from the beginning of the video. Love the fact they added the Japanese culture as part of this.This, totally not to been seen if you're pregnant or "holy". Might offend you in some ways. It does involve babies - dead. I did not post gory shots - well, some but believe me ..there's more morbid scenes in the video. Never exactly knew what's this song is about - maybe miscarriage, maybe abortion, maybe prostitution. Who knows, only Kyo knew it well. Toshiya is one good looking vampire, hands down. Robert-whatever-Twilight should learn from him.

Guilt of sins

banzai!

somehow reminds me of "grave of the fireflies"

or so the meaning of Vinushka.It's 3 am and am still amazed of the new ripped video of Vinushka.Been waiting for a year, was hoping they'd make a full version of the 9.37 min song . Dir en grey (ディル・アン・グレイ), answered my prayers. They did a full version video of the song. I'm so happy I could cry.

I exchange thoughts with the clouds
I hold my breath
Ahh, it's just hard shell you can't see
Is that where the bottom is? The shadow burns me
Ahh, I just want to keep forgetting
Slip your desires into the ants' nest
Come now, all you have to do now is be reborn again

Let tomorrow sleep and peacefulness will turn to you
Free yourself and go with your razor sharp emotions
Even the twisted flow is the proof that you're alive
I invite the tearfully-indulging sorrow

The inculated Dogra Magra
The pain of the mark and the one and only personality
And those colorful eyes all decorated I don't want them anymore
Is hypocrisy going to come and take it all away?
The lonely red stage at night
I dedicate the following to the aspiring leading actor
That's where the truth is

The small corner of my un-cheatable heart says "I still want to be here"
Who can't we forgive?
I let them hear my cold voice
And I swear

I will live with my work I scream with this body of flesh that separates heaven and hell
I carve the sins
What will be the proof of my existence if it disappears with the wind?

I've stared at the strong shining moon long enough to be bored
Can't even turn myself into a werewolf
But just enough to become crazy by the darkness
I want to suck the neck
The emptiness of the remains
I won't let you sleep
At the age where you just want attention... tonight, I might go crazy for you

Everyone wants to reach out their hand and grab happiness
But they just end up becoming the monster that lies deep in darkness
The end has already come to life
It will take form at zero and will crawl back into the uterus and rot
Every time this happens, your faces crumble

No one wants to talk about the truth that hurts the ear
The suppressed minds

Compensate the sins and let life be gone

The emptiness of the antithesis
Becomes the choking and crying land
Bury the bones in the common land immersed in thesis
Be burdened by depression
The gritty tsunami takes me away and I smile with bitter tears
Couldn't understand the value of things
The hanging of the necks at the 13 stairs
Seeing people becoming friendly while clapping hands
That mixes in with sissy thoughts and hurts others
Seeing you like this, it's just too sad

Splash of blood
Squashing basic instincts
Talk about death

I will live with my work I scream with this body of flesh that separates heaven and hell
I carve the sins
What will be the proof of my existence if it disappears with the wind?

No one wants to talk about the truth that hurts the ear
The suppressed minds

Compensate the sins, and let life be gone
Is it a sin for me to live because I am evil?

I love Dir en grey music videos. Apart from Kodou (鼓動) this is definitely among top 5 fav video.What's there not to like, the video conveys the message perfectly. Though it's a bit raw, considering some images were just edited together with the previous version (the promotional ver).Now I know why they only released this on the DVD instead, apparently the Japanese censorship is not fond of the band (or so I read Kaoru's interview).They make beautiful artsy music video. period. I should be born a Japanese instead.

kudos Dir en grey, you do admit your ancestors were at fault. Beautiful lyrics.きれい !This is one of the many reasons why I love them.I knew it'd be awesome. すき! すき! すき!

ps: It's been 64 years since WWII, still not a good topic of a conversation.The after math is still..there.longest post ever.damn I'm a fan girl

in memory of

(松本 秀人, Matsumoto Hideto December 13, 1964–May 2, 1998).

if he's alive,he would be 45 today. rest in peace hide-san.(not a fan but he's a rock legend represents Japan. Rumours says the late MJ went for his funeral)